currently;;on my dear dear bed(:
2 months after that shocking news.
i think i finally start to get over it, just a little.
(i wonder how many litres of tears i
wasted (for them, never wasted) shed)
although all these might not be real at all, not to the slightest bit,
Dear Turtle,
Please Please Please stay with him.
アイツのそばに居てくれ、支えてくれ、温もりをくれ。
お願いだから。
this is as far as how screwed a fangirl's mind can be.
ignore me, i love my fantasy world, where it exists only in the dark.
only hiroshi and myself.
誰にも邪魔できない世界、ずっと守ってる世界。
一の明るくなくて美しい世界。
また会えるの日があるのは信じたい。心から、その天使たちを愛する。何が変わっても、それは永遠に変わらないんだ。私は死ぬ日まで。it's still a long way to go before i can fully get over this,
perhaps, i will never forget this for the rest of my life.
subconciously, i will search for you in them.
subconciously, i will strain my ears to hear your harmony in their songs.
up till now, i still don't dare to listen to their new songs.
because, i know that i will never get to hear his voice in them ever again.
the voice that didn't appear for once 4 years ago allowed the history repeats itself,
by never appearing ever again.
me hoping for something that will never happen again >//<
～～～
i am the one who wants to start work early, and the one who started work early.
yet the one who is complaining about the lack of time to go shopping.
what a weird me!
